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10-12-2007 02:07 AM
It's scary... waiting for the phone to ring in an unexpected hour.. vigilant and somber.
But... now, I no longer have to wait.
It's funny how you take one big incident in your life and it changes EVERYTHING. I didn't think that it would impact me as much as it did. But I'm not quite sure how to act anymore. Everything I do makes me think 100 times more. And then there are those moments where I just remember certain situations, her hand in my hand, her words to me. The worst are the regrets. If I could have woken up earlier that morning, maybe I could've gone with her to those places, if I could've spent more time at her house, I would've gotten to know her better.
Then I stop myself. Because regrets are meaningless. I remember that things happen for a reason, and I DID get to know her. I am like my grandmother, very much so. And I will continue to remember the good things and cherish what knowledge she gave me. And no matter what, I won't forget.
Things are still very surreal, as I have not seen my mother yet. But as soon as she arrives this monday, it's going to hit me again. But I'll stay strong because I know my grandma would've wanted me to be that way.
R.I.P. Andrea Angeles
May God keep you in his hands
It's scary... waiting for the phone to ring in an unexpected hour.. vigilant and somber.
But... now, I no longer have to wait.
It's funny how you take one big incident in your life and it changes EVERYTHING. I didn't think that it would impact me as much as it did. But I'm not quite sure how to act anymore. Everything I do makes me think 100 times more. And then there are those moments where I just remember certain situations, her hand in my hand, her words to me. The worst are the regrets. If I could have woken up earlier that morning, maybe I could've gone with her to those places, if I could've spent more time at her house, I would've gotten to know her better.
Then I stop myself. Because regrets are meaningless. I remember that things happen for a reason, and I DID get to know her. I am like my grandmother, very much so. And I will continue to remember the good things and cherish what knowledge she gave me. And no matter what, I won't forget.
Things are still very surreal, as I have not seen my mother yet. But as soon as she arrives this monday, it's going to hit me again. But I'll stay strong because I know my grandma would've wanted me to be that way.
R.I.P. Andrea Angeles
May God keep you in his hands
28-07-2007 11:46 PM
Oye vey
That was one spectacularly tiring but short trip. I just came back from the model search and it was pretty fun. Though I stood in line for 3 hours and the entire process took about 15 minutes. WOW it was tiring. I got a free shirt, it's cute and also a $10 off coupon from my favorite store. All I can do now is wait. I'm not too excited about it - I saw SO many beautiful girls in line and one in particular that had gone from the back of the line to the front. She was gorgeous. Lots were way taller and hand nicer "ass"etts. BUT I did have fun, So I hope they pick they top models and maybe I can try again next year. I'll post pics lata!
Im gonna go snuggles with my Waxy <3
Yurts
Oye vey
That was one spectacularly tiring but short trip. I just came back from the model search and it was pretty fun. Though I stood in line for 3 hours and the entire process took about 15 minutes. WOW it was tiring. I got a free shirt, it's cute and also a $10 off coupon from my favorite store. All I can do now is wait. I'm not too excited about it - I saw SO many beautiful girls in line and one in particular that had gone from the back of the line to the front. She was gorgeous. Lots were way taller and hand nicer "ass"etts. BUT I did have fun, So I hope they pick they top models and maybe I can try again next year. I'll post pics lata!
Im gonna go snuggles with my Waxy <3
Yurts
26-07-2007 01:17 PM
It's been almost 2 weeks since my iccul doggies been missing, and almost two weeks since I've visited my grandmother, almost 2 weeks since I've not been to church.
What's wrong with me? I have no idea why I've been acting the way I have, but I've been extremely off lately. I've been through a lot these past years, and this time I'm alone with my situations, as it seems no one but myself understands what I'm going through.People are very nice and empathetic, but they don't have a full comprehension as to why I'm a complete nutter. LOL...Ahhhhh LIFE.
So anyway, there it is... What are your plans for this weekend? Ive none... I don't know if I want to do anything except for laundry...even then I don't think I'll do it... Ive been so lazy!!! Anyway .... I'm off... toodles!!!
Yurty
It's been almost 2 weeks since my iccul doggies been missing, and almost two weeks since I've visited my grandmother, almost 2 weeks since I've not been to church.
What's wrong with me? I have no idea why I've been acting the way I have, but I've been extremely off lately. I've been through a lot these past years, and this time I'm alone with my situations, as it seems no one but myself understands what I'm going through.People are very nice and empathetic, but they don't have a full comprehension as to why I'm a complete nutter. LOL...Ahhhhh LIFE.
So anyway, there it is... What are your plans for this weekend? Ive none... I don't know if I want to do anything except for laundry...even then I don't think I'll do it... Ive been so lazy!!! Anyway .... I'm off... toodles!!!
Yurty
24-07-2007 07:39 PM
July 24, 2007
I'm sick. I'm staying home today and David and I are going to have some fun. Or sleep. Either way I'm not going to work. Let's see. We have a lot of things to work on with HBB and my site, I have so many ideas it's practically bursting out of my mind. Though I would like to have ALL opinons of my staff... wink wink. Anyway, we're out!
Yurty
July 24, 2007
I'm sick. I'm staying home today and David and I are going to have some fun. Or sleep. Either way I'm not going to work. Let's see. We have a lot of things to work on with HBB and my site, I have so many ideas it's practically bursting out of my mind. Though I would like to have ALL opinons of my staff... wink wink. Anyway, we're out!
Yurty